Its CHRISTMAS MONTH!!!!!!

Wooo!!!
Yay!! Its Christmas month!!!
Lots and lotsss of things to do!!!

Huhu...sedih la jugak...
Month ni jugak my FINALS for second Sem!
haizz..rasa cm cepat sangat kan3?


Still......
I DONT CARE!!!
Never say NO to CHRISTMAS!!!!


Hehe...
its the most Wonderful time of the year... =)
Magical month...
SO many things happening.....
Lots of games...gathering..... Christmas events kat Ipoh.....
Wohooo ....I get to meet Juwita Suito.... =) and many more celebs....

Haiz....
macam mana laaaa the  word  STUDY gonna come in my head this month???

huhu

27th - 30th















SCARYYY!!!!!!


Time passes by super fast!!
Its already the end of 2nd Sem.... 1 more Sem and Thats the End of ........

I really hope i do well..
And PASS all the subjects...


Prayer & wish list...

* I pray that this Christmas month will be a blast!!
* I pray that  I'll be well by the time all the family gathering appear....
* I wish & pray 2 PASS all my subjects in 2nd Sem...
* I want lots and lots of presents.... hahahahhahahaha

JOY TO THE WORLD!!!!

Yup!!


Joy to the world.... My very first major event in UTAR...~~~

We, the CF *Christian Fellowship* crew took about 2 months to make this magical night come true.......
And it did!!!!

From deco, to music, to choir, to worship, to drama, to cameras, to lights and many more.....

So many memories we had.....

For the past 1 month....Everybody has been helping in decorating the hall...and Christmas tree....

haha...small cute one......

So yaa...... I was the keyboardist for that day..... *REALLY NERVOUS*..... eventhough i've been playing for the pass 15 years already.... hahaha...


So Finally the day had arrived.....

Everyone was dressed in their acting suit.... And we..the music band.... I should say ...we looked...HOT!!! hahahaa

Cool ek.. =) hahahhaa...

We all had 2 put makeup... EVEN the GUys!!! HAHAHAHA......

So then, we got the que to start....Crap!!! my hands were superr numb and freezing cold.... grrrr...

hahaa...

THere were 500 chairs.....But the number of people who came were i think 650?? CRAP!!!!

dah la..ada spotlight.....  super scary...all eyes are on us......

what if i played the wrong keys... arghH!!!

dah la...while playing... i was kindda feeling like a paparazzi..... coz... there were like 4 camera man in front of me taking my picture....

too bad i couldnt pose or peace them..haha..*cover line* :P :P

haha..

So anyway.... The first part of worship was over...It went well...Really proud!!!

Really proud of the audience too..SUPER spotting!!!!!!


Then drama..... hahha..super funny!!! All did their best!!

Really proud of you guys!!! 

After the drama.....We had a guest speaker.... Then it was the Finale....~~

Feliz Navidad....~~ We Wish you a merry Christmas....... &     JOY TO THE WORLD!!!!!!!!


Wohooo!!! It was a blast!!!!

It was truly a dream come true..... All our hard work paid off.... The amount of hours we practice.. The hands that were busy preparing everything to make this day a success.....The sleepless nights.....The minor problems and misunderstandings were all forgotten....Coz.....

WE MADE THE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
THANK YOU GOD.......BECAUSE OF YOU, WE WERE ABLE TO CELEBRATE THAT DAY JOYFULLY!!!!!!....

Well.. Here goes the feeling....

I cant explain this feeling....
Its weird....
I find it hard 2 find the right words 2 explain..
But nothing comes out eventually....
It has been haunting me till now..
I still dont have a right answer to why it ended..
Yet i still feel that things hasnt ended yet..
I still miss...and love...
But i cant...Coz i belong 2 someone else..
Yet i cant stop this feeling of guilt and sadness..
I wish it would go away...
I still get jealous for everything i see
Maybe not AS jealous as before...
But i will not deny this feeling...
Also, I feel guilty..
Because i feel im a barrier to you and others..
There is / are sm1/ others out there wanting you ...maybe..
But i know your heart..
I know and im sorry for all the pain and hurt that i've caused..
If only i could flashback and remember why..
and have a good reason for ending it...
I wouldnt be feeling like this...
But i cant..I JUST CANT!!!!!....
I want you to feel happy...
I want to see you with others...
I want to see others who are willing to take care of you...and make you smile..
just like how we were...
If only i could talk 2 you about this..
If only i could express all this to you..
But i dont know how..
I'm afraid you've changed...
or dont wanna talk about it..
I'm afraid you'll cry and be mad at me.,
Im sorry...
Im sorry for ending it abruptly...
Im sorry for the many times that i tried not 2 care when you cried on the phone..
Begging for me 2 come back 2 you...
begging me not to leave you..
saying you'll change...
you'll do ANYTHING 2 change for me...
But i dont know....
i dont know whyyyy i couldnt accept it....


I hope you get 2 read this 1 day..
I just want you 2 know,,
i havent forgot about you..or us....
I know its wrong of me... Coz i will be hurting the person i love
if dia baca ni..
I just wish we could talk...


If you read this 1 day...
I hope i could hear from you..

IM SORRY...

A Real True Honest "SORRY"

Saying "SORRY" isnt a word that your can just simply say when and whenever you want like "hai" or "bye"

Sorry carries alot of meanings......

It may be for something that you badly did...

Or for hurting someone....

For apologizing for something  that you never intended to do or say or mean.....

It also is a word that expresses how guilty you feel....How bad you feel...
Its like a promise or swear that you'll never do it again...EVER AGAIN!!!!......



when you say SORRY....

How do you overcome a problem?

a)   You must be honest in any problem that your going through......

b)  You must be BRAVE to admit YOUR WRONGS.....

c)  You MUST regret what you had done.....Not only for the sake of making someone feel better...
It must come from within....

d) You must be ready to CHANGE...... Throw away old attitude..Bring in  the new...

e)  Try as hard as you can to please make the other person's heart happy again...

f) Mostly in fights or arguments ....You must be ready to be criticized ........

Sem WAn...One...Oneee!!!

Hey!!...Today...I received my First Sems Exam results........

At first...my heart was pumping like mad.... I dint wanna see it... But well. I gotta face it anyhow...
So i opened my portal...Viewed...Read..bla bla bla...

........

Results..........

I PASSED ALL MY SUBJECTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gosh!!! I thank God SOOOOO much!!!
He answered all my prayers...all those who prayed for me.....
Thanks for all your support.....

I gotta admit....

With all hard work.....There's always a great reward in the end!!!

A nice piece...written....

Its been years since we met... You asked....And i willingly accepted you in my life...
We had so much fun...laughter.... You mostly stuck to me like glue....Took loads of pictures and all
Then as the years pass.. You began 2 venture out... And you accepted others in your life...
I dint mind it...Because its your life.. But it did hurt bcoz i had 2 find out through my friends...
Eversince then, all you did was hang around that new people...but you barely hung around me or did things we used 2 do when we were close..
So , i decided 2 also venture out and accept others....  Which you came 2 know....
And you dint like it.... You got mad....
But that never stopped you.... Soon after that you were close to other friends.....
Until you barely even spoke 2 me....   Its like they had taken my place as sm1 special in your life...
Of coz..Its your life...you have the right...and i cannot stop you,,,, But until the fact that you hardly text/ chat/ im/ anything me.... But i can always see you and others so "busy" and happy....
Eventhough, yes i was wrong... but still even when i had others....I never forgot you....
Even till today... I still text you. write on your wall...share pictures..... But yet...
. 1 min the pictures i shared were there...The next min...ITS ALL GONE...*REMOVED* by you...   But  pictures of you with others still remain....
Many times...I feel bad.... So i take the trouble to ask you out...You know,... just like two of us...
Coz we dint hang out for a long long time..... But everytime i asked..... You always had some answer or excuse...  Okay i believed.... But then.... i saw pictures of you hanging out with others..happy...
Others could take you out...But i couldnt.....?   Or its just that you purposely dont wanna go out with me?
At least i take the trouble 2 ask... But do you? Or you prefer hanging out with other friends?
hurm.....  The topic of me having others also comes out often...
At least i still text you...ask you out....write on ur wall... But do you ever rply?  Do you ever do the same?
Hurmmmmm........     I did wrong...And i know i made you sad..But i already talked to you and said sorry... ... But if thats not enough...and you still go on  like you hardly know me.... Barely even talk or acknowledge me...Then ..I dont know what 2 say or do anymore....
It makes me sad?....But it seems like you dont care....  Of coz i miss you...But i guess you dont.....
So... have fun...I'm happy to see you happy and smile when your around others...
Coz i know... there always people 2 take care of you and listen to your problems when you need them....
Before i end..... I just wanna say...Im sorry again...
If you read this one day..... I hope..I'll get a note from YOU.... ..     Take year....Dear one... =)




~~~For friends....   This aint a love story...or anything...this is reality....Dont get me wrong.....
And this is for peeps out there who have gone through the same thing...~~
Doesnt always have 2 be about love or bf/gf....Sometimes....It can be among friends... =)

Thanks for reading!!! =)

Maybe.... this is what a girl wants?

Maybe this is what i want....

~~ To be treated more than a friend...

~~ Sometimes as a princess...

~~Sometimes as a matured adult...

~~ Sometimes as a lil gurl...

~~ To be loved more than anything in your world...

~~ To be your 1ST in everything...

~~ To be your angel...your diary...your facebook..your blog...

~~ To be the 1st and last in your life...*God-willing if its possible*

~~ To be treated manja2..

~~ To be respected...

~~ To be told when im wrong or anything....

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~do it if you love  me~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 

Sharing some jokes??

Dear Yahoo,

Have you ever heard anyone say "I dunno, Yahoo It!"

I don't think so!
Sincerely

Google.

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 Your name in my phone: i dont even have your

 number~ haha

- Whether i would go out with you: if u belanja ^^v

 joking~ haha

- Who are you to me: cute sistaa~ haha

- Do i find you interesting: agak laaa ^^

- What do i like best about you: errr... ur cheeks??? 

=_=''' pervert gila kan? haha

- What do i dislike about you: nothin i guess... heee~

- My fav memory of us: gt meh??? haha... xda lagi 

nohh

- My first impression on you: wahh so chubby ♥ _ ♥ 

*sorry~ i admire chubby2 grls ^^v

- Are you annoying or not: nope... not at all...

- How close are we: besa2 ja... kita pon baru ja knai 

noh ^^

- How do i rate your looks (1-10): 10 *dun ask me 

why~ hahaha

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ex-boyfriend and ex-girlfriend run into each other

boy: hey! listen, i really miss you

girl: *sneezes*

boy: bless you , are you sick?

girl: no, i'm just allergic to bullshit.

Langkawiii~~~

Wohooo.....

4 days in Langkawi.....Awesome!!!


Although it did rain few days.....


It was a real enjoyable holiday.......


So 1st day,,,


Naek ferry......woooo..nice...


Open sea.....

While watching planet of the Apes for 2 hours...... hahaha...

Then sampai.... got a car....




Zoomed off.....to hotel!!!....

Its situated somewhere in Pantai Cenang....Surrounded by beaches....woooo

the lobby~~~

the room.....

Everything was nice...

Yup...Raining when we reached...But a miny lake outside....

Cm kampung kan?

So the next day....We went Island Hopping.......

My Lovely Family....Love you guys...LOADS!!!!

We went to see the eagles...... AWESOME!!!!.....






then 2 Tasik Dayang Bunting...

Wild monkeys everywhere!!!!...scaryyyyy

1st Sem in UTAR already ended!!!!!

Life in UTAR....

Gosh...its already been 3 months = almost the 1 SEM over......

Time passes by damnnnn fastt!!!....

i still remember the 1st day...

i entered UTAR...

new room....new housemates.....

Surrounded by chinese people all aroun for the 1st time!!!

  Will i ever be able 2 adapt here??

  Can i make new friends???

and bla bla bla......

So 1st day of new Uni life came....

Im glad i made 5 new friends......

and as weeks went by....

i knew almost everyone in my lecture hall......

then we got closer..... at night...lepak2......

And now.... its almost gonna be over....Sem 1...

i cherish every moment i had with all my new friends.....

even church friends..... awesome!!!!//

In those 3 months...

I got a chance 2 be close 2 a lot of ipoh friends...

Had lots of other gengs tooo....

Had birthday party by the lake.....

had flour and egg and cake fight!!!!!!!!!!!! awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!

So i finally got a chance 2 go 2 ipoh with them...and sleepover...

and shopping!!!! weee =)....

Then i had fun playing keyboard...

For the 1st time there....in front of sooo many people....

nasib baek all went well....

Then the last day before i came back 4 study week...

which is now...

the night.... my whole geng...boys and girls...

we went 2 secret recipe..... 

then went 2 the lake....

played POP POP!!!

hahaha....yup.....all my childish idea.....

i even get bullied untill now...

coz they say im sooo childish.......... hahahahha...

they even ejek my voice and when i laugh.....

grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!

then we took pictures.....treasure all of them......

hurmm..... 

so SEM 1??? awesome!!!!!...

looking forward 2 SEM 2!!! weee =)......

Free Personal signatures - cool!

TEXTAREA_ID

I miss them~~~

I miss my people who were close to me...

My people who were always there with me...

Really close....

Miss making them jealous like crazy...

Even though....Every1 close to me... we all went throught SOOOO MANYYYY conflicts...

Some that even until now still left a scar in my heart...

But still...when i think about all of it...

There's soooo many precious memories together.....

The times i spent in diff houses....

The super HOT gossips....

Super unSTOPABLE laughter!!!!!


the sweet hugs,,,,,

The shoulders that i could cry on...

The times we spent at malls...school....

The times you all had 2 tolerate my CHILDISH ness..... coz i am childish..
*sorry if you all got annoyed with me*

But i always believe...

Everything has a reason...

And there's a reason why God made us meet each other...

God has brought you all into my life...

So many with different characters and attitudes...

All which when i think back... i think..." how did i ever be able 2 tolerate all of them"

hahahaa...


I Miss you guys..... sooo much.....

I always thought i'll be the 1 2 change coz im in Uni...

But it looks like....

Every1 else have change.....but not me....

Eventhough...i admit...im busy...

Uni life...IS NO JOKE....seriously....

But i do feel bad...coz i have 2 do "those chores" first than put all my loved once 1st...


Even my own family....

I really try hard 2 make time 2 talk 2 them....


I hope you all understand...

But i never expected it all to turn out this way...

Again....

im the one who's left alone....

I guess this is life....

Life must go on......Right?


take care my dears....


I MISS YOU ALL SOO MUCH!!!!!....


God-willing....We shall meet...Somewhere...Somehow....SOMEDAY!!!!