I cant explain this feeling....
Its weird....
I find it hard 2 find the right words 2 explain..
But nothing comes out eventually....
It has been haunting me till now..
I still dont have a right answer to why it ended..
Yet i still feel that things hasnt ended yet..
I still miss...and love...
But i cant...Coz i belong 2 someone else..
Yet i cant stop this feeling of guilt and sadness..
I wish it would go away...
I still get jealous for everything i see
Maybe not AS jealous as before...
But i will not deny this feeling...
Also, I feel guilty..
Because i feel im a barrier to you and others..
There is / are sm1/ others out there wanting you ...maybe..
But i know your heart..
I know and im sorry for all the pain and hurt that i've caused..
If only i could flashback and remember why..
and have a good reason for ending it...
I wouldnt be feeling like this...
But i cant..I JUST CANT!!!!!....
I want you to feel happy...
I want to see you with others...
I want to see others who are willing to take care of you...and make you smile..
just like how we were...
If only i could talk 2 you about this..
If only i could express all this to you..
But i dont know how..
I'm afraid you've changed...
or dont wanna talk about it..
I'm afraid you'll cry and be mad at me.,
Im sorry...
Im sorry for ending it abruptly...
Im sorry for the many times that i tried not 2 care when you cried on the phone..
Begging for me 2 come back 2 you...
begging me not to leave you..
saying you'll change...
you'll do ANYTHING 2 change for me...
But i dont know....
i dont know whyyyy i couldnt accept it....
I hope you get 2 read this 1 day..
I just want you 2 know,,
i havent forgot about you..or us....
I know its wrong of me... Coz i will be hurting the person i love
if dia baca ni..
I just wish we could talk...
If you read this 1 day...
I hope i could hear from you..
IM SORRY...
