Its been awhile... Well SPM was juz over..9 days of study STudy STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!Pressure..Non-stop stress...haizzzz...Anyway...its all over!!! The best part is..Christmas is around the corner!! JUST IN TIME!!! hahahahah!!!...Thank God 4 helping me throughout my exam... Do your BEST..leave the Rest to God!!! and i did!..hehe... Now its Christmas,.. i hope i get 2 enjoy my Christmas without any probs... safe journey everywhere i go.. Hope i can settle all the probs i've been with , with whoever b4 Christmas.... Christmas is not all about receiving presents, money,new clothes and all...Its about changing ur heart..changing ur previous bad ways..N its the birth of our baby KING!!! =)...


I hope 1 of my Christmas present will be GOOD RESULTS for SPM.. and helping me pass my driving test!! wohooo!!! =).... 






Christmas Card Maker

Fights~

Fights....FiGhtS... FIGHTS!

Haiz...life is full of them ...Well of coz...without fights there wont be agreement and life wont be complete right??.. Fights always occur esp in relationships.. Well maybe its coz 1 person is right and the other is wrong..Or maybe..1 of them hurt the other... haizz..ITS COMPLICATING!!!...


Almost everyday we have fights...How 2 settle??
a) We have to hear both sides first..Cant simply shoot the gun..
b) We have to trust each other and not lie..
c) Always tell the truth eventhough the truth might hurt sometimes..
d) Dont hang up or stop until you've solved the prob and ended the fight
e) Dont give up so easily..
f) Shouting aint gonna solve anything
g) Try not to make ur partner or sm1 cry..
h) Dont be quick 2 say "break up"..




Fights take hours..But its worth it right? Especially when the ending is that you both are back with each other right? Surprisingly, fights does bring you and ur relationship with tat certain sm1 more and more closer..So its gud 2 fight sometimes..   As long as it is a clean fight~ =)

AAAAAARGGGGGGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Arrrrrrrrghhhhhhhh!!!!!

Omg.....Why is my life like this?? Juz when i thought smua dah ok~~ But it seems like blom g~~ haizzzzzzzzzzzz!!! Jealousy~~ ok i knw its a biasa feeling everyone has..ok xpe~ xpe you should know ur limit lar~~ and you should find out 1st b4 jeles xtentu pasal~~..n marah like wat only,~ Masalahnya..what dia buat dlu..smua dia abaikan~ n lupakan~ katanya " dia dah xwat dah" but still dia wat jugak~ n BANYAK PLAK 2!!! i pun ade prasaan gak!! i pun skt aty gak~ tp tym dia wat 2..mesra2 smua 2..ade dia kisah ape yg i rase??? Almost like everyday duk men mesra~ Smpai i mmg xleh thn sbb aty skt gler2222 SAKIT..2 yg terpaksa tegur...haizzz...hati ni pun lgi 1... asal my heart ni xleh thn lama skit?? aduhhh!!!!.... Dah 2...i baru je cmmnt syg 2 sorang 2...its like juz d 1ST OR 2ND tym je!! 2 je!! 2 pun dah kena marah dr si DIA.. haiz... masalah dia~ xsampai brape hari i dah tnjk n buktikan sgalanya padanya~ Xp dia masih xmau percaya samaku~~

Final CountDown!!!

Hey blog...This is the 1st the of my final month of schulling + major exm!!!! Im half happy...and half scared...n half sad...huhuhuhu~~~ Well, every beginning as 2 have an ending right?

Marie Digby - Avalanche Music Video

Since when do you come around?
And the temperatures change, nothing's the same
Left me, in yesterday
You don't see me that way, touch me that way, no more
When d'you get so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we made (mountain that we've made)
And the ground is shakin' from all of our mistakes (all of our mistakes)
But there's no wall, nothing but us is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If only you knew, what my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand? (Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche? (avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche? (avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, ooooh)

We see what's up ahead, Why do we stay? Watchin' us fadin'
Trapped in, by regret
There's no way out, and there's no way in, no
And it's so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we made (mountain that we've made)
And the ground is shakin', from all of our mistakes (all of our mistakes)
But there's no one, nothing but us is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If only you knew, What my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand? (Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche? (avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche? (avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, ooooh)

The bond is breaking, and it's taking over, my spirit (quickly, quickly)
Something's shifted, have we drifted too far apart now?

If only you knew, What my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand? (Where do we stand?)
Can we pull through this avalanche? (avalanche, avalanche, oh, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche)
Can we pull through this avalanche? (avalanche, avalanche, yeah, this avalanche, avalanche, avalanche, ooooh)
Avalanche 

Rossa - Hati Yang Kau Sakiti (Super HQ Audio/Video)

Maafkan jika memang kini harus kutinggalkan dirimu

Karena hatiku slalu kau lukai

Tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu

Ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yg kurasa

Ku menangis... membayangkan

Betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku

Kau duakan cinta ini

Kau pergi bersamanya

Ku menangis... melepaskan

Kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku

Harus slalu kau tahu

Akulah hati yg telah disakiti

Maafkan jika memang kini harus kutinggalkan dirimu

Karena hatiku slalu kau lukai

Tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu

Ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yg kurasa

Ku menangis... membayangkan

Betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku

Kau duakan cinta ini

Kau pergi bersamanya

Ku menangis... melepaskan

Kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku

Harus slalu kau tahu

Akulah hati yg telah kau sakiti

Ku menangis...

Harus slalu kau tahu

Akulah hati yang telah....

Kau sakiti...

Dilemma~~~~ How can i be happy anymore? ...4 people out there too~

K so...you must be wondering what im I crapping bout..

Life seems happy now..but at the same time..why do my tears still fall? why do i still feel sad? Why do i still get hurt?Why???? WHY?????? what have i done so badly 2 deserve a life like this??

Im happy on the outer part,but inside IM BLEEDING...!!!

Im starting to be the someone i hate, a different person...Sm1 who's quiet..Sm1 sooo moody nowdays...I've never been like that...I've always kept everytg 2 myself...I guess now my heart is tryg 2 tell me that I myself cant take all this anymore...My heart hurts sooo badly...But why? I thought everything is settle..Were fine. IM fine...!!!bUT??..

Im sooo tired of taking care of other people's feelings and heart...But they never do the same way for me...Thats the saddest part..Thinking even your loved ones wouldn't hurt you..But its true..Your loved or beloved ones are the ones that hurt you the most...God..! WHy???..So much so..I rase nak duk sorang2 je..Biar je i xda kawan..org yg tersyg...Ade pun masalah..xde pun salah.. I missed the times people use to make me laugh..But now..So many say i;ve changed a lot..im soo quiet now..Im not myself..Maybe its because the pain and hurt im feeling in me..I can bear 2 stand it..But i have to.ITS LIFE RIGHT..?

I miss the times when my loved ones cared sooo much about me...Put me first in their lives..Worry bout me sooo much...Dlu masa first2 2...cakap..."your my life..your my lover...your worth everything..you mean everything to me...I cant live without you..You complete me..Your the only one that understands me..Your more important than my own life "

But did all that ever last long? Those words were just for the beginning..But now..I realized..It was all real at that moment only.Like it was only just a DREAM~~...The saddest part was..The people who said all those sentence and words are the same ones who are hurting me like mad.. Everytime I admit..But whats the point..Its not fair if im the only one that always has 2 admit, be truthful, come clean, always honest, never keep anything..when behind my back..There's lots of things going on that might juz scrape my heart again? I purposely have to tahan the pain and ask ...And sure enough...Only when i ask, the truth and everything comes out? ,,,Why?? Why is life so unfair? Only when i ask, thats when i knw who were you being with and spending ur tym with,...The best part is..When korang layan org len..Siapa yg diignore? ME!!!!! ME!!!!!


This is why...I have 2 venture out to..For 5 years now..I havent gone through 1 year..without being hurt, sad, almost dumped n more.. Yes i admit..I start making myself love sm1..Making them love me soo much..Because im afraid..When my loved ones leave me one day..I will be all alone..No one 2 share my sadness,pain,,hurt... And then when i have sm1 new..That really takes care of me..Treats me as if im a baby..Loves me sooooooooo much..Would do anything for me..The way tat person expresses the love to me..Even made something and wrote in it..all about me..wow~ I feel soo...touched..For sooo long ive never felt like that...Its always been others first..And myself last.. But, with tat person..Eventhough younger, still.. I really feel appreciated..Finally someone is taking care of me...Loving me..Without wanting anything in return...Even said and promised if i get dumped or hurt..Tat person will be there waiting for me...But i cant..I cant love tat person more...I have someone...But everything felt so nice...Im younger to mostly all of my loved ones..But still.Im the one who has to treat them like the smaller one.. Im sorry if this hurt you..or any1...But its just my feeling..Im to afraid 2 tell..I just wished...I could feel that way with my loved ones.. I wanna be loved so much to..I want to be taken care of without having to take care of any1 back in return. But everytime i get scolded..Mad at...Everythg i do is wrong..Xp smua u wat..i xmrh pun!..Please...PLEASE.....Heal my heart..it hurts soo badly...plz make me to become my happy self back..please..im begging all of you...

Rules :
Ok ya..in relationship..of coz there has 2 be rules right? If not both of us would go wild..Without disiplin there's no relationship..Yes i agree we have to trust each other..But how can we trust a person who we trust so much, after what they have done to us? Hurt us, make us cry so many times...Okay..We say we us to control each other..But it isnt fair when only 1 person controls the other gets to do whatever they like behind our back??..Promise...Im starting 2 hate that word..I've had enough with promises...I keep telling people...Dont make promises you cant keep.Dont treat promises as a simple or shortcut way 2 settle the prob..Look..Please take relationships seriously..  


When a person you love says they hate something, or dont like something...
DUN LA DO IT ANYMORE....


~ When the person you loves says please dun keep anything..
IT MEANS DONT KEEP A SINGLE THING..(ex : wat ur doing,who ur with,who ur chattin with,wats your prob,whats ur feelings etc,...)


When you know some1 wrote something or did something u know and ur sure your lover will be so mad when seeing it..
THEN HURRY UP AND DELETE IT LA..BUT YOU STILL HAVE TO TELL YOUR LOVER..


When you already promise your lover you wont do it again...
DONT U DARE EVER REPEAT THE SAME MISTAKE..NO POINT SAYING SORRY AFTER YOUR LOVER HAS WARNED YOU...


Whats the point of scolding ur lover for being or chattin or talkg 2 some1 else ...
WHILE YOUR JUST DOING THE EXACT SAME THING???


When your already in love with some1...
DUN EVER LOOK AT ANY1 ELSE..


When you say ur worried...
NO POINT JUST SAYING,..SHOW IT...SHOW THAT YOU REALLY MEAN IT...CALL, CHAT, POST 


Never give any1 ur contact details or anything about you
WITHOUT TELLING YOUR LOVER..!!


If your lover is a gurl..Gurls want attention...Gurls are sensitive..Gurls cry so easily...Gurls get emotional so easily.. Gurls get mad easily..
SO IF YOU KNOW ALL THAT WHY STILL LET IT HAPPEN???


It has been proven,.A gurl will never trust their partner if ever their partner has cheated on them, lied to them, and so on..

Love your loved ones as much as you can..You will never know...It might just be the last...And then.It'll be to late to regret...Cherish every moment you both spend together..Enough of drama's.. Live happily back again..

~All said and done remains here..The killerbaby had return.Purple Devil was here~

My lover!!!

Things i want you to do...

• Love me as much as you can
• Dont be afraid you express your love (jgn lebih2 hahaha)
• Jealous is not wrong..it shows how much you love me
• when ur mad..plz dun blah cm2 je..We have to talk about it...and settle it the right way
• plz dun do the things i dun like
• you knw wat are the things that make me jealous
• be Romantic!!!
• call me for a change..slalu im the 1 je.....i miss your voice...(we use to call each other almost everyday dlu) bt now you get tired so fast..even while talkin to me you fall asleep??!!!!
• Hate others calling you things i dun like~~
• Dont do things behind my back..plz i trust you..
• but still loveee you being hot and gatai sometimes!
• If your bz or have to go smewhere or your doing smtg..plz tell me. I hate it when you juz senyap cm2 je...
• xske when you juz snyap when were in a midst of something or doing smtg together~~
• hate you being sarcastic!!! when i asked you nicely..

Nelly - Just A Dream

I was thinking about her 
Thinking bout me 
Thinkin bout us (us) 
What we gunna be? 
Open my eyes, (Yeah) 
it was only just a dream... 

So I travel back (uh) 
down that road (road) 
Will she come back? (Uh) 
No one knows 
I realize (Yeah) 
It was only just a dream. 

I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement 
Number 1 spot, Now she find her a replacement 
I swear now I can't take it 
Knowing somebody's got my baby 

Now you ain't around, baby I can't think 
I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring 
Cuz I can still feel it in the air 
See her pretty face, run my fingers through her hair 

My lover, my life, My shawty, my wife 
She left me, Im tied. 
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right 

I was thinking about her 
Thinking bout me 
Thinkin bout us (us) 
What we gunna be? 
Open my eyes, (Yeah) 
it was only just a dream... 

So I travel back (Uh) 
Down that road (Yeah) 
Will she come back? (back) 
No one knows 
I realize (Yeah) 
It was only just a dream. 

When I be ridin 
man I swear I see your face at every turn 
trying to get my usher on but I can't let it burn 
And I just hope that she notice she the only one I yearn for 
No more will I be missing, will I learn? 

Didn't give her all my love 
I guess now I got my payback 
Now im in the club thinking all about my baby 
HEY, she was so easy to love 
But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough 
I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone 
Now I'm wishing she would pick up the phone 
But she made a decision that she wanted to move on 
Cause I was wrong. 

I was thinking about her 
Thinking bout me 
Thinkin bout us (us) 
What we gunna be? 
Open my eyes, (Yeah) 
it was only just a dream... 

So I travel back (Uh) 
Down that road (road) 
Will she come back? (back) 
No one knows 
I realize (Yeah) 
It was only just a dream... 

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up 
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up 
Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything 
X2 

I was thinking about her 
Thinking bout me 
Thinkin bout us (us) 
What we gunna be? 
Open my eyes, (Yeah) 
it was only just a dream... 

So I travel back (Uh) 
Down that road (road) 
Will she come back? (back) 
No one knows 
I realize (Yeah) 
It was only just a dream... 
X2